NeverGiveUp_Boy's Blog

It has come to the end of another of my holidays in America, and it is the time that I’m afraid the most: the goodbye! Well, it happens every year but you got to agree with me that goodbye is never fun, it is always nostalgic and sentimental.

Lying in bed the last night is always lonesome and you always wonder what the future holds. If you have read my October’s blog, you would have encountered the same feelings that I express in that entry.

However, every year I came back to my family for a holiday, it is like I went through a life’s workshop that update me, changes me in a positive way and I absolutely treasure my time with my family. It’s the time when I can refill my love, feel the energy rise again inside me so that when I come back to Australia, I have the strength to tackle another year ahead.

I feel grateful and lucky to have a strong family, whose members love each other and we are tight in an unbreakable tight knot that will never be broken. I am old  and mature now to know how to use my yearning and sentimental feeling for my family to turn it into strength to keep fighting for what I want in life.

This holidays I have hug my family countless times and tell them how much I love them, in words, that makes sound, not mumble! I find that sometimes we argue in loud voice but when it comes to expressing our feelings to our family, we become these crippling and weak talker, afraid to tell them that we love them. Maybe it is because we have learned to bury our feelings so deep underneath that when we need to express it, we feel awkward.

I strongly recommend you to have a thought about who really matter to you, who you really love in your life, whether they are your friends, your family, your relatives or your son and daughter, then hug them and tell them out loud so they can hear it that you love them and they mean a lot to you. Tell them frequently and don’t wait until “the right moment”. There is no right moment for love, every moment is the right moment to tell someone they really mean a lot to you.

I have find so much more courage during this holidays, meet a few new people and realise that life is all about balance, about forgiving and empathise as well as being compassionate towards others. It is relieving to express your feeling out when it bothers you. When you sad, tell yourself “I am sad”. Have a monologue with yourself why you feel that way and work out a solution if possible. It will feel lighter if you can acknowledge and be honest with yourself. There is nothing to be afraid of. It can be daunting talking with yourself about sensitive or feeling issues, but you will get used to it  and it becomes easier to open the door to your soul. Let you and yourself always be transparent as between you and yourself, it is always both secret and bare, no one have to know, only you and yourself know.

I know I have digress a fair bit from the topic of this blog. Let’s wrap it up for now. Another year is about to come to an end, and I know that I have tried my best this year. I have learned more this year, find more courage and love with family and friends. I know I am a step closer to who I want to be, to where I want to be and to my dreams. I know deep inside I have endless love for my family, relatives and closed friends, and I have learned to take a deep breath, turn this into strength to tackle life harder and be more mature.

Bring it on another year, another Life’s workshop and I am ready!